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   2010

   January

   • Suffer through the hardest break up of all time
   • Live a high school version of “(500) Days of Summer” through this break up (soundtrack included)*
   • “Raise the bar”
   • Saturday
   • Get grounded for the rest of my life (not really)
   • Start talking to girl.

   February

   • After a whole month and a half, get over break up.
   • Start to like girl.
   • Valentine’s Day valentines
   • Start new band
   • Get a Tumblr
   • Write at least 13 songs in US History class
   • Go to movies with girl

   March

   • First kiss**
   • Start continuous band practice
   • Win first place in Talent Show (Bon Jovi, fuck)
   • Ex drama lingers on
   • Believe things start to look up

   April

   • Battle of the Bands…”honorable mention”
   • Band issues escalate
   • Sudden raise in grades
   • Faith slowly returning
   • Write infamous never-released-but-always-talked-about love song

   May

   • Prom.
   • Take care of drunk teacher during prom
   • Last day as a junior in high school.
   • Miss graduation because of sleep-in.
   • Begin World Cup sticker album

   June

   • World Cup begins.
   • First “official” date.
   • Average happiness.
   • Begin distress over college.
   • Begin carelessness over being a senior.

   July

   • World Cup ends.
   • Most loving birthday in a while.
   • Leave for California - temporarily.
   • Struggling love due to distance.
   • Stress and meltdown in California
   • First texting experience ever in the USA (pathetic)
   • Visit colleges

   August

   • Love distress
   • First day as a senior
   • Last first day of high school.
   • Start to worry about college seriously
   • Get good grades

   September

   • Worry about soccer team.
   • Try out for varsity soccer team
   • Get to know a spanish person
   • Lose myself
   • Begin college applications
   • Steal test for Bolivian History

   October

   • Halloween party fail
   • Become a professional cheater in tests
   • Get carried away
   • Meet new friend- cause controversy
   • Three hour conversation with someone who listened to everything I said

   November

   • End of Varsity soccer team.
   • Send college applications
   • Things on the rise
   • Neglect feelings
   • Write over 100 songs.
   • Throw said songs on my floor and start from scratch
   • Appear on the cover of a magazine.

   December

   • End of first semester.
   • Three years.
   • Make new band.
   • Songs 1 and 3 with new band.
   • Get accepted into three different universities
   • Lose myself again.
   • Love distress.
   • Begin to lose relationship.
   • Emotional maturity - “too little too late”
   • Write stupid bullet points about previous year
   • End of year.

   Ultimately, this year didn’t have much to do in hindsight, but little things always seem huge in their moment- but isn’t that how things always are? Things are bleak and the year is ending, and I wish I had that psychological understanding of refreshment for new years that others have. I wish I could reboot myself like a computer and start fresh next year. Don’t get me wrong, I still will…but only because I’m seeing it as a brand new day, not a brand new year. Spent seconds and years ultimately become the same thing: the past. They all merge, and the yesterday has the same worth as the past year.

   It’s over, but I guess it’s only beginning. This year has a brand new day and a brand new weekend to make things right. If you want to change your life, you have to start with yourself. I’m going to mature. I think I deserve better.

   *Disclaimer: my past relationship had about 78% of similarities with (500) Days of Summer, with clear differences including what comes with the age, such as jobs, complete freedom from authority, and a lack of care for school.

   **First kiss in relationship. My first kiss was in second grade, bitches.

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